Another Great Day

 Today was not a good day. It was a great day.  How often have I been able to say that in 2025?  Not much.  For the first time in long time I like my life.  I’ve been trying to be very transparent with you readers, myself and God.  I’ve cried out plenty of times that I didn’t like the way things were going in my life. Hope has been pretty scarce as I battle my grief and miss my wife and family.    What has kept my head above water is knowing that this is all temporary.  I know that God is faithful and He has good things in store for me as long as I’m faithful.  I have been faithful for awhile now.  I also know there is nothing else I can do for my family at the moment except be present when I have them and to Seek God first.  I’m doing that and I’m expecting God’s rewards soon because He always keeps his promises.  

I woke up again with a heaviness all around me.  This is the third time this week.  I do believe I and my family are under spiritual attack.  I’m really down so the enemy is trying to take me out while I’m at my most vulnerable.  Some people don’t believe in spiritual attacks or discount them.  I certainly do believe in them.  It also gives me hope at the same time.  If I’m getting that much attention from the enemy then something good must be about to happen.  There are two mistakes generally when dealing with the enemy.  Not giving him any credit and giving him too much credit.  I think I’m in a healthy perspective right down the middle.  My favorite quote from the late Charles Stanley, “If you aren’t bothering the devil, He won’t bother you.”  So I must be bothering or about the bother devil because my life has been psychologically and emotionally intense.  So I woke up with the heaviness again and did the only thing I know to do.  I just had to plow through it. I plow through with a lot of praise and prayer which confounds the enemy.   I did have something to look forward to today.  I was getting my middle daughter after school.  That gave me the hope that I needed and the fuel to get me through my day.  

It was a good day at school.  I do enjoy what I do right now.  I could consider myself as a failed producer or a successful teacher.  I choose the latter.  Failed producer might be a little too self-critical.  I’ve had an amazing career, traveled the world, met hundreds if not thousands of mostly interesting people all around the world.  I’m quite blessed when I break it down that way.  I feel like I’ve lived several lifetimes thus far and I don’t think I’ve peaked just yet.  I’m still holding out hope of making an even bigger impact.  That is what God has breathed into my spirit.  

After school I had a good workout and went to pick up my daughter and my dog.  I took her out to a dinner date.  I was able to tell her that boys need to hold the doors open for ladies as she plowed ahead and tried to open the door herself.  I don’t get a chance to model proper behavior and expectation too often so I try to seize every opportunity.    We had a nice dinner at Red Robin, one of our favorite places to go to because she loves the refillable salads.  It was just cool having company when eating at dinner.   What I normally do is watch a show on my phone while I eat.  I think she also appreciated the one on one attention.  After dinner we had to rush back home because I ran out of insulin.  I have to change my Insulin pod every 3 days and sometimes It’s not the most convenient.  Because I ran out my blood sugar went sky high and it always takes awhile to come back down.  We headed to see a movie after that.  She likes watching the previews for movies while I do not.  I try to get to the theater about 25 minutes after the listed showtime and that usually gets me there for the last trailer/commercial.  But we got there early so she could watch all the commercials.  Just as the movie was about to start some sort of alarm went off and the lights came on.  We were evacuated out of the theater.  So we had to stand around outside for about 30 minutes while the Fire Department was called.  Was it miserable and annoying?  No, I was with my daughter and we were able to make the best of it.  We just enjoyed being in each others’ company.  So after about an hour outside we were finally told that they couldn’t get the Imax projector reset so it was out for the night.  We weren’t disappointed because we were still enjoying just being together.  We were relieved to leave because both us were ready to come home.  So we got two vouchers for another future movie and came home.  She was ready to go right to bed. She has always been like that even from being a child.  She always put herself to sleep or to take naps when she was tired.  Not many kids do that.   So I’m writing this while she sleeps so I’m not taking away any time from her.  I have my dog by my side while I write this and I’m watching the Golden State Warriors play live on Amazon Prime.  It started out rough but it wound up being a great day.  I’m grateful and God’s faithful.  Today is evidence of that.