Making the Best of It.
I didn’t want to write yesterday. I was having a down day. I thought, why should I write another “Rick is so lonely” piece. At one point in life I really thought I was the happiest, most optimistic guy on the planet. At least that is what I was striving to be. Yet for the last year I’ve been the opposite of me. I don’t feel like myself. That is why It’s so foreign to me, this loneliness, depression thing. I know that this is a temporary phase and I’ll get out of it eventually. The duration of the depression/loneliness is something that I can’t factor in or control. I’m trying to make the best of it, and somedays I do. Yesterday was not one of those days, but today is. I miss being part of a team, I miss having a partner, I miss having someone I could be proud of, admire and express my admiration, I miss tucking my kids in at night and praying with them. I miss checking on them in the middle of the nigh...