Prepared for the storm
It’s been a rough couple of days for me. Nothing much has changed. However, the grief seems to come in waves. This time it was accompanied by sorrow. I think the impending winter storm was a reminder to me that I’m on my own. My core fear is the fear of abandonment (which I’ve learned from lots of therapy) and right now I’m feeling it. I know that God has never will ever abandon me as he promised “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” (Hebrews 13:5 and a few other places). So I’m relying on that promise to see me through this time. I know this period of sorrow is temporary and I’m not over reacting to it. Instead I’m trying to do something different. Normally when we feel pain we want to fix it immediately or as soon as we can. But this emotional/psychological pain is different. I can’t fix it immediately. I know I can’t fix my situation, I can only make it worse. So I’m trying to do something ...