Rick Beeman

  I was due for a bad day. Well it’s not really that bad, just less than ideal.  I had a great day followed by 3 really good days.  That’s four positive days in a row, a new 2025 record!.  Why were they good days?  (because I didn’t blog about it, you don’t know) I had my children for my visitation for the weekend and Teacher Work Day today.  Even just typing that brought a smile to my face.  Three things have been really helping me survive this pain and loneliness during this separation, 1. Prayer, 2. Working out 3. This blog.  There are some other things too but they pale in comparison.  So for the last three days I forewent #2 and #3 so I could completely focus and be present for my children.  Because I only get to see them about 13-15% of the month, I cherish the time that I do have with them.  I think they enjoy it too, especially the dog.  The dog travels with the girls so I get to see him too.  We didn’t do anything...

  I had a really nice weekend.  Having my girls is a mixed blessing.  It makes me so less lonely being with them.  But it’s also bittersweet as it reminds me what it was like when I was with them full time and I obviously miss that. I took so many things for granted in the past thinking Love lasts forever.    Why can’t I just be happy and count my blessings for the present instead of longing for yesterday.  I’m sure I will get there eventually but this is a process.  My wife was kind enough to let me have the dog until Tuesday.  Usually I go through a mild depression when I drop the girls off.  But having the dog here is soothing.  It helps the come down seem less drastic.   I was also greatly encouraged by church today.  It seemed as if the preacher Bryan Lorritts from the Summit had been following me around the past six months and wrote a specific sermon exactly for my present situation.  The title of the messa...