A bit down after several days of up.
Im a bit down today. Not really too sure why, but then again I wasn’t really sure why I was up for the last couple of weeks. Maybe the grief and joy comes in waves. One small explanation is that I am a bit disappointed. I made a scheduling error with a doctor appointment which meant I wouldn’t get to see my youngest today. I was really looking forward to it. Her smile just lights up my day. She’s at the age where she is just so happy just to be with me even though we aren’t doing anything. I think I might have gotten a bit spoiled seeing my children nearly every day for the past week. I had grown accustomed to that. But now that it isn’t presenting itself just for 1 day it has put me in a funk. So what did I do wrong? Did I just come to rely upon the daily interaction to give me a false sense of hope and family? I’m not too sure. I really have been treasuring each moment that I have with them. An...