Doing what I want, when I want, albeit reluctantly
I had a different yet totally fulfilling day. I was tempted to feel guilty for doing whatever I want but that is the position in which I find myself. I spent most of my adult life trying to figure out what to do for the best of the group/unit and then trying to make the best of it. Now I find myself just needing to be concerned with one. I wish it were different. I’m starting to embrace my new identity of being single albeit reluctantly single. I should say in my singleness I’m leaning into my faith in God like never before. While I’m alone I’m increasingly less lonely. While I do miss the companionship of a spouse and the presence of my kids I’m learning to be at peace at all times. The hard part for me in being alone is that I will always believe it is best for the children to be reared in a two parent home with their mom and dad. So I find myself with guilt in not being able to provide that stable foundation for my own chil...