Rick Beeman

  Today was not a good day. It was a great day.  How often have I been able to say that in 2025?  Not much.  For the first time in long time I like my life.  I’ve been trying to be very transparent with you readers, myself and God.  I’ve cried out plenty of times that I didn’t like the way things were going in my life. Hope has been pretty scarce as I battle my grief and miss my wife and family.    What has kept my head above water is knowing that this is all temporary.  I know that God is faithful and He has good things in store for me as long as I’m faithful.  I have been faithful for awhile now.  I also know there is nothing else I can do for my family at the moment except be present when I have them and to Seek God first.  I’m doing that and I’m expecting God’s rewards soon because He always keeps his promises.   I woke up again with a heaviness all around me.  This is the third time this week.  I do bel...

  I feel as if I am in a spiritual and psychological battle with an In his prime Mike Tyson. I’m trying to withstand the heavy blows. This morning I woke up with such a heaviness that was pretty inexplicable.  I make a habit of the first thing that comes out of my mouth (outloud) after the alarm bell rings is “This is the day the Lord has made.  I will rejoice and be glad in it.”  Its a good way to start out the day.  Since I’m alone most of the time I just talk out loud to God like someone you are having a conversation with.  It’s not awkward when you are by yourself.  I’m also quite honest with Him.  Like God I don’t like this…or God I’m lonely…or God I need hope.  I also throw in a lot of praise and thanksgiving in order to balance it out.  Sometimes God answers in pretty cool ways, often times he does not.  That’s the time where there is one set of footprints in the sand. iykyk This morning on my commute into work I just felt th...