So glad the 6 weeks are over

Another very good day. Its amazing that six weeks of tough times was exactly the six weeks like God had specifically indicated to me. Ever since I’ve made it out of that period things have just been a lot lighter. I really think it was a period of testing for me. It also encourages me that if God is accurate when he tells me that times will be tough, that means he’ll be accurate when things are good as well. I think December is going to be an amazing month for me. I’ve kind of felt it coming on for some time now. My dear friend Reji also prophesied that over me as well. So Im really looking forward to that month. Even the rest of November is shaping up to be fantastic. I have one week to go before I fly back to the U.S. Im so looking forward to seeing my children. I hope I can see my daughter…its been so long. I really do miss her. Please pray for the restoration of that relationship.

We had a pretty important meeting today. How this meeting came about was pretty interesting. There was this person, whom I didn’t know, started reading and commenting about my blog. I don’t want to use his name, but the guy is a really nice guy. He had come to my Pos. living group and we just really struck up a good friendship. Well he was working for a company that needs a very big project done. Because we had this relationship he invited KSDi to bid on it. This is where we were today. If it happens it could be one of the biggest deals in KSDi’s history. All this potential as a result of a divine connection through this blog. There are so many possibilities of what could happen between now and the end of December. But I think I’ve learned from God not to worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will take care of itself. I am in total peace and confidence about what the future will indeed hold for me. This is such amazingly strong faith, the likes of which I’ve never experienced before. I think that is what the last four years have all been about for me. Its God teaching me to completely abandon all hope in myself and rely 100% on God. I think I’ve got it now.

After the meeting, Pat the basketball coach invited me over for a lunch at his house with Mr. Harlem and his wife. We got talking about philosophy and it was really interesting talking about the meaning of life. I think I’ve got the answer down for the meaning of life. Its all about denying self. The more you can deny self the happier you will be, as long as you put God in that place. It seems the more self-centered we become the more miserable we are inside. People sometimes ask how do you know when you are in love? The answer I think is simple. Its when your partner’s needs become more important than your own. Conversely how do you know when you are out of love, when your needs become more important. If you think about Divorce for instance (other than abuse and continuous adultery) it’s the most selfish act anyone can ever do…other than murder. I wish someone would write a book (or maybe I should) that interviews people that sought divorces then find out if they honestly later regret it. Maybe I’ll start a facebook group. Hindsight is always 20/20. Perhaps if more young people would be warned about the pitfalls of divorce perhaps they would reconsider. The grass is not greener on the other side. There are just as many piles of crap on the other side of the fence as there are on your side. That is the bastardization of the American dream. Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. Too many people think I want to be happy…and don’t want to wait for it. So they take a short cut. That short cut is a lie from the pit of Hell. Oh you might have some people out there that claim they are happier from their divorce…but I don’t think I would believe them. Divorce is absolutely devastating. That is probably one of the reasons why Im railing so hard against it. I hate divorce and I see why God hates it as well. Its absolutely devastating to everyone. Like drugs..maybe we need to create a educational program targeted towards the youth…like the “Just Say No” program. It also would be an interesting study to find out the percentage of divorces that come from a previously divorced household. I have a feeling that children such as myself that have a two parent family that stays together their children have a much lower percentage of divorce than a child that comes from a divorced home. I think divorce might be a generational curse, like alcohol, drugs, abuse, or other generational curses. It would be an interesting study. In the meantime…Im trying to do what God did with Joseph, “What the devil meant for evil God will turn for good.” If some good could come out of my divorce and my sharing about it…that would make me very satisfied. God is faithful…and God is in control.