It was a very special day today on a couple of levels. First of all, God has really been speaking to me lately. Just to put it out there as a matter of faith I’ll tell you about it. First of all…meeting and becoming engaged to Jennifer was an absolutely called shot by God. Now we have to work out the details. My career, her career, her dissertation, when exactly to get married, where to live, what to do with her dogs, her house, which way to roll the toilet paper over or under..etc. So while I was with Jennifer I felt like God told me that everything would get sorted out in a spectacular way in two months. That word was around the middle of Feb. (I forgot to write the exact date down). So its going to happen somewhere around Mid-April I believe. God is so cool when he gives me these dates. They always come to pass. So this week God told me that to prepare for the future and for guidance I was supposed to fast for two days. Just a short little one, and Jennifer did too. We are both really seeking God’s perfect will in our lives, not just his permissive will.
Anytime you fast you can really hear God’s voice much more clearly. You become absolutely in tune with him. I download a lot of sermons on my ipod. On Wed. by happenstance I picked one of 50 sermons I had by Charles Stanley and it was on Joseph and God’s faithfulness. I’ve always liked the Joseph story because I felt like I could relate. Then today at church Graeme spoke on…..Joseph. You think God is trying to tell me something here? Yeah. Joseph is a guy who had a few faults, spoke out when he shouldn’t have, but always kept the faith. There are so many unjust and unfair things that happened to Joseph, but he persevered with his faith and ultimately wound up on the extreme positive side. The injustice that happened to Joseph is almost beyond comprehension. Those closest to me know and believe that I have suffered almost unbelievable injustice. I loved my former wife and kids more than any man possibly could. Then to see all this hatred and bitterness brew is beyond heart breaking. That is why so many friends and family through facebook and other outlets are so thrilled for me because I’ve found love again. They know what I’ve been through and they are so genuinely happy for me. But this whole 5 years is a testimony to God as I’ve had the strength to not only endure but to thrive. Even as my relationship with my children becomes even more fractured God is giving me the strength. I try not to think about the loss too much as it would just cripple me. I take Philippians 4 to heart, Whatever is good, whatever is righteous, whatever is noble, think on these things. So what encouraged me is that even though bad things are happening and totally unfair, those same things happened to Joseph too. I just have to persevere. God is already starting to bless me for my faithfulness. That is the picture with Jennifer…the perfect girl for me. Its pretty amazing how many precise details God got right with her for me. I think its just testimony to how he cares about the little things.
Anytime that God wants to make a point to you he’ll repeat it through two or three witnesses. Hearing the story of injustice and ultimate redemption in Joseph’s life again was God’s way of telling me to hang in there. I know someday I’ll enjoy a great relationship with my children (whom I dearly love) for now there’s someone in my life to love me and help me through this tough time of physical and emotional estrangement. God gave me a helper just like he gave Adam with Eve. God knew exactly what I needed.
Part 2 of today will come tomorrow with tales of a day at the waterpark with some of my staff. God is very very good…even in the midst of a storm.
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