confidence then the test

I was so confident yesterday. My confidence was born from God’s absolute faithfulness. I don’t think I was showing off, but perhaps I was. The confidence was certainly tested today. It seems like I was struck from both points of the globe. Starting this morning at 5 am with a body blow then an uppercut a few hours later at 10am. I was stunned at first but not knocked to the canvas. I might go into details in a few weeks but for now, just the generalities. The first thing I did when the crap hit was give it to God and acknowledge that He is control. So when all seems upside, I just praised God thanking him for being in control. I prayed against the fear and the fear went away. So I don’t think it was a coincidence everything hitting all at once. First with Jennifer leaving two days ago, then everything earlier today. I think…no, I know that it was a test. Im feeling pretty positive that I handled it in the right way. It is going to be a pretty momentous 7 weeks. So I was stunned a little earlier today. But now Im just as positive as I was last night. It sure helps to have Jennifer in my corner. Perhaps God brought her into my life for this season because he knew I needed an encourager, a teammate, to get me through this section of life.

There has been a disagreement of sorts between Nader and I about the value of the Funniest Person competition. We didn’t make much money at it. But it was bold and innovative. I told him I didn’t think the project would make a lot of money but it would be great for PR for the company. Getting the brand name out there. So today we were out scouting for a big shoot tomorrow, where the Prime Minister will be in attendance. The organizer of the event recognized me and said aren’t you the guy that’s doing the Funniest Person contest. So that was a good connection for us. It will lead to more work down the road. It will bode well for us in the future. Then I went to dinner at Johnny Rocket’s. I saw a friend I haven’t seen for a couple of months. He congratulated me on the engagement as he read it in the paper. Im getting a lot of responses like that. It’s a small island so that type of coverage can go a long way here. Its easier to saturate a smaller space. Its always kind of fun when I go to restaurants and recognized by the wait staff. Again the “Hollywood” thing goes a long way out here.

I got pat hooked on LOST. He was right at the end of season 2, there is a line that Penny, Desmond’s fiancé says “All we really need is someone to love us.” Im not sure about the theology behind that because we need God’s love. But the concept is ringing true for me. I think that is the main reason why God brought Jennifer into my life at the moment. No matter what I face…and today was a tough one, all I needed was that person to love me. God used that person to help me through the day. I think the next seven weeks is going to be quite eventful. Im glad I have someone in my corner to see me through.