Rick Beeman

  I am getting comfortable sitting in my discomfort. I was able to make it out today to go exercise after nearly 2 days of being iced in.  For my fear of abandonment issues and my distaste of being alone, I managed fairly well.  I actually had a few moments of joy thrown in there as well.  I have to slowly retrain my brain into my new reality.  I don’t want to embrace it but I also don’t want to mope around for the rest of my life. Feeling sorry for yourself only traps you further into the muck of despair and discontent.  Instead of fighting for yesterday I am attempting to embrace tomorrow.  Along the way I have to be at peace for today.  It’s all a bit poetic but it seems to be working little by little.  I am living out the serenity prayer in real time.  “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.  With a few setbacks every now and then, I’...

  A funny thing happened to me today. At least I thought it was funny and I laughed.  So that’s a good sign.  It was raining outside and I came in and hung up my raincoat.  Right next to the coat, I put on my light Warriors sweat coat because it was more comfortable (Picture below). Then I ran upstairs to take off my sneakers and put on my slippers.    I was just about to blog about what a nice beautiful day it was for me then it hit me.  I wasn’t going to mention anything about a neighborhood and I don’t have a toy train running through my town home.  However, I do have several puppets scattered throughout my home.   Does this mean that I’m officially old now?  Or have I just become Mr. Rogers?  Upon further investigation Mr. Rogers never mentioned his wife on the show so he also seemed to be single on air. (He occasionally mentioned his wife in interviews outside of the show but never on the show.).   As far as children on th...