A bit of a downer today.

 I wasn’t sure I was going to post today but I am forcing myself to do so. I’m a bit down and lonely today.  I saw my kiddoes for a few brief minutes at church.  So if the grief comes in waves, I’m experiencing a wave right now.  I know I’ll pull through.  I know intellectually that God is faithful.  I know I am doing all the right things.  But I’m still down.  I should probably just go to sleep and start fresh tomorrow.  I need to stay in the moment.  In the moment there is peace right now, but not an abundance of joy.  What I need now is hope.  Hope for the future is what drives me.  I’m not going to make this worse on myself.  Im looking forward to the short week.  I get my kids next weekend so that is something I can look forward to.  

I know there are a lot of people out there that have worse problems than I do.  I just have to keep everything in perspective.  This too shall last.  Sorry for the debbie downer post.  Things will be better tomorrow…I just know it.